hey people wuts up nothing much here just getting worried about my great grandfather papa joe....he has been in the hospital 4 ever now and their saying he might not make it....but he is 84 (idk around there i know he is in the 80s)so i have to go to me grandparents house today and help them get all of papa joes stuff out of my room but the saddest part about him about to die is that i havent seen him since christmas and the last time i have heard from him was when he was first in the hospital and he called me on my birthday.he wont get up and walk anymore,he cussed out the nurses,..(giggles) and he is cussing out his room mates since they moved him to the nursing home across the street 4rm the hospital well i got to go get ready to go and help my grandparents.

hi people wats up nothing here just listening to my littlest sister, kelsea play barbies its so cute she making them fight and other stuff........yeah i wish i had my cell phone to record it and put it on here but i got that taken up by my mom i get it back friday!!!!!yay!!!!!!i am so tired of all the rumors but i am starting to get really pissed!!!!!!i wonder wat life would be like if i wasnt here!!!!!it would probably be better for every one especially me cuz i need to get away from all of this!!!!!just i couldnt leave my rat all alone!!!!hes so cute o and i just found out that my rat is a boy!!!!its about time i named it Ben......i dont know why it was either that or TUNA!!!!!but i call him tuna too cuz its funny but yeah i am so freakin bored i could pull out all of my hair!!!!!! holli

p.s. how do u stop being so depressed???

hi people wats up please  do this for me if u want

   1.wats our relationship?

2. how long have you known me?

3.would you ever date me?

4.wat do i like?

5.wat do i hate?

6.have you ever dated me?

7.wat do u like about me?

8. do i have any siblings?

9. do u think i will ever get married?

10.wat kind of music do i listen to?

11.have u ever kissed me?

12.would u ever kiss me?

13.if i kissed u would u kiss me back?

14.wats my real hair color?

15.wat do i want to dye my hair?

16.wats my faveorite band?....(my chemical romance u better know that one!!!)

17.did u know that i just gave u the answer for number 16?

18. if i said i was moving wat would ur reaction be?

19.wats my middle name?

20.do u know if i am single or dating someone right now?

21.did u know that i am single?

22.wats the name of the intrument that i am learning to play? (my dad makes them and plays them hint...hint)

23.have i ever been in love?

24.if i have been in love then who was i in love with?

25.do u think i will ever be in love again??

                  hey i just made up all of that as i went along please do it 4 me so i wouldnt be wasting my time....even though i have plenty of time to spend

hey people wats up?????nothing much here i dont even know why i have a phuckin xanga!!!!!!wats the point to it?????i am so phuckin confused and my life is a living hell!!!!!!i would start pretending i am happy but no cuz i cant pretend to be something im not!!!!i cant even pretend im happy in my xanga even if i tried!!!!thats how messed up my life is nothing is ever going right and when it does its not going right for me usually for someone i still like or one of my best friends but i really need someones help so if u have any "advice" PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS!!!!!!!

          still confused,

                                 holli